start all over again

yesterday i turned 23. dun wanna talk about the birthday now. its been a roller coaster day.. blame me for being so selfish and childish. it strated since the holiday, we have skipped the morning time with Jesus for more than one week. we have forgotten how big thing it is. we ended the day without any grateful feeling. slowly we losing something that keep us in control. we passed the day with human strengh, thought it will be enough..

But there are times when God shows His love through punishment. through problems and tears, we are reminded that we are nothing but a helpless human being. we cant make things happen with our own strengh. and we cant overcome the disappointment and fear by ourselves. we need holy spirit to guide us, to accept things,to fight the bad feeling,and most importantly to be able to love...

yesterday was frustrating. no one have the power to change yesterday. But God can.He turns the frustrating day as a way back to Him, to His loving arm where peaceful resides. yes, God never stop giving us opportunity to start over again. i want to spend more time with Him, learn more about His words. i want to be a responsible person, in my serving at church, in my work, in my relationship. i want to be more loving to my loved one, my family, friends and anyone... through prayer,it will happen..