weekend pudding

since by moved to pluit village,, i always spent my saturday night alone. at first, it was frustating.. i feel so bored and lonely.. but slowly i tried to plan my night.

sometimes i will watched movie.. but i find out that i dun really enjoy watching movie alone.. i get used to have by on my side. :p other nights i tried scrapbooking.. but scrapbooking get me bored easily.. :D so on these past few weeks, i try on a new thing,.. making puding.. it went from mango pudding, tofu pudding, mocca pudding and chocolate pudding for tonight.. it was fun trying on a new recipe.. and now i am thinking of making strawberry pudding for next week.. ^^

a red shoe

hello..its my red shoe arriving.. (^________^) thankfully, it fits sweetly on my big feet.. :D i was worrying it will not fit because the sizing chart confused me so i just pick my usual size. this shoe takes sometime to arrive,, since its handmade.. but anyway its worth the waiting.. ^^

btw, its a second shoe i ve bought this month.. should stop shopping before by complain i guess.... *sobs

a day off

we had a day off.. its so unplanned, i just know that i need a day off very much.. maybe because of the rough day on sunday.. Waking up this morning, i felt very bad.. and by called me asking whether i want to have a day off with him. of course yes.. i've been missing those times..

so here comess our day off.. before by arrive, i finished decorating my cupcake to be sent to my little neighbours, the trio V's (Valen, Velis, and Vioni). and i cooked daikon soup for dinner.. as by came, we watched 'before sunrise'. by and i love this movie.. and by said its one of his fave movie..

at first we plan to go to Ancol to capture sunrise with my holga. but we were too sick of the traffic.. we want our day off to be jam free.. ^^ so MOI here we come. by wanna go to the multi toys. but sadly, there is no dragon ball egg he's looking for.. also, i bring along my holga and wish could take few shoot around. ^^

we passed by yopie salon and by notice that it only costs 18k for a haircut.. and as the saloon girl asked him for a hair wash, i then said to by not to hair wash cos it will cost more.. wat a cheapskate.. ;p but the girl said the price is the same whether we want to have a hair wash or not which is 36k. the 18k displayed on the price list outside is for kid's cut.. we both rolled our eyes and its too late to cancel.. so by's having his 1st 36k hair cut. usually he went to barbershop. ;p



we then go to carrefour for grocery shopping. by stayed very long at the mags section coz all the movie mags there are unwrapped.. it was aroun 3 o'clock and we havent taken lunch yet.. so hungry but i dont wanna eat at MOI coz i want to eat my fave soto daging madura at MKG.. ^^ so MKG we go,, for lunch and for my birthdayyy shopping.. **excited..

its been a long discussion on what i want for my birthday.. it went from chair, suitcase, wardrobe, scrapbook kit, dress, so on and on.. but then i decided i want something that i can bring everyday and everywhere with me.. looks like furniture is not a good choice.. ;p so the list has been shorlisted between ring or watch.. and by said he prefer to buy me watch since my elle watch is quite old now. i then found a chic watch i always wanted in Swatch.. i love it so much.. thank my deariee.. its the best gift..


i put on the watch as by paid for it.. by said it looks lovely in my hand.. ^^ and its time to go home,.. im very tired yet very happy.. i love our day off.. im gonna sleep early tonite, take a sweet sleep and be ready for another working day.. thank my love for giving me a good day,.. help me to forget all the sadness i had before and replace it with a sweet memory.. he is definitely my favorite person in the world.. i love my bear always!

my 2nd cupcake

on my first cupcake making, the buttercream was failed.. i was like trying to mix up butter and water.. @@ so i give another try with the buttercream and with another recipe.. and i am so happy it tasted good.. ^^

i dont know about cake decorating,, so it just a simple twist with the spuit.. ;p but they turned out quite lovely, no? ^^

TA on thursday

its my best friend, widya second visit to jakarta. last nite we met up again in TA.. i was going to TA with william, widya's brother. it took us almost one and half hour from our office because of the traffic.. huuhh, it made me a little scared to go anywhere on the weekdays.. but anw, it worth to hang out with your best friend you dont get to see everyday or even every month. :D widya was with her hubby, made.. so four of us went for dinner at noodle cafe as soon as we arrived.. but the meal was suck. i order something called nancing chicken that tasted nothing except salty.. -_-


then we went to metro to find a shoe. i have a wedding party this weekend and got no shoe to wear with my dress. and after trying on some of them, i made up my mind with a sweet shoe from studio nine. i guess this shoe will be a gift from my cousin, Sunny. on my birthday last time sunny gave me cash as a birthday gift and asked me to buy myself a birthday gift. ^^


and initially we planned to meet moel on TA. but it didnt go as planned. so before going home, i took them to sour and sally to try out the new flavor, bublegum attack.. and it was 9.30 when we leave TA. william and i send widya and made back to kosambi. we had a nice talk on the way. it reminds me the time we used to be together back in high school. it was lots of fun. and it was a good nite too hanging out together last nite.. come again soon my dear friend.. ^^

a week of discourages

music has never been my specialty. but last year i decided to take a piano course. main reason was we ( dad, mom, bro and I) shared to buy a piano. i remembered i invest 4 mil for it.. ^^

playing piano been a challenge for me and it took me some time to start. and after sometime i enjoyed playing it.. it help me calm down from a stressful day. however i am still very far on knowing how to play it right.. it really hard for me to catch up with rhythm. and my short term concentration has always been a problem.

It was last week when i go for piano class, i felt so dumb and sad. i felt like there's no hope for me. and i was thinking to quit because maybe music just isnt my world. i havent practiced this week. but by always encouraged me, that he said even a prof has to practice very very hard to master it. so it needless to say that i gotta put more efforts on practicing. thank to my very supportive BF who always give me new spirit and of course to the almighty Lord Jesus who makes everything possible. ^^

and i found beautiful quotes that motivates me ,,

Being defeated is only a temporary condition; giving up is what makes it permanent.
-- Marilyn vos Savant

Don't be discouraged. It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.
-- Author Unknown

It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
-- Confucius

I don't wait for moods. You accomplish nothing if you do that. Your mind must know it has to get down to work.
-- Pearl Buck

Never, never, never, never give up.
-- Winston Churchill

We can do anything we want as long as we stick to it long enough.
-- Helen Keller

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.'
-- Author Unknown

download hard

recently, it hard to find a little free time to just sit down and have fun with my DS. coming home from office i gotta cook for dinner, since mom has went back to pontianak.. sad, but i'd really enjoy cooking.. it calms me in someway..

but i still believe that my DS is one of my precious investment. someday it will be a very good weapon on killing my boredom and time. ^^ based on that belief, i am downloading the rom very hard. and mostly in the office. *wink.

i found this really cool website call ROMulation and has been downloaded many many roms here.. hoho.. and will definitely keep downlading.. *big smile

2,5 years

its the 2.5 year we've been together.. our days were quite stable this few months. we spent our time together five days a week and by going home on weekend.. i really enjoy our time together.. we go to church each morning to pray(if we could wake up early :P). and i'd pray we could make it as our morning routine until many years from now.. then we would enjoy breakfast together and sometime he drive me to office.. what a beautiful start of a day..

in the evening,, after a full day in office, i would come home and wait for him. sometime i cook dinner or just practising piano.. then he would knock on my door and give me a big hug. :D on days that i wasnt too sleepy, we watched dvd together or we may just sit together doing our own things. anything we do, i love our nights together.. sometimes on special occasion like anniversary or birthday he would take me out.. mostly to mall nearby,, because we were sick of the traffic jam. we had dinner and go to book store or toy store for a window shopping.. ^^

all these little things that we do over and over again never get me bored.. i enjoyed every second of it because our togetherness is the sweetest thing ever. happy anniversary dearie! I love you.. always have and always will..

ps: by gave me this for our anniv.. :D

and its us in october..

a visit and a gift..

last week widya got a free trip to jakarta from Garuda. and we had a chance to meet up on thursday.. its nice to have a visit from a friend.. after office hour, we went to by office and by drove us to GI.. we had dinner together and go for a little window shopping and stopped by at Zara.. and widya bought me a white turtleneck shirt, she said its for my birthday,.. what a surprise.. ^^ thank dear friend..

thankful morning

by is more than a boyfriend for me. he sometimes acts like a father who give directions. like now, he helps me to build up a new habit. he called it " cute and bersyukur". funny, isnt it? =D

so every morning on our way to office, we had this thankful session. give thank for the beautiful morning and every good things of life. being thankful is beautiful. and the magic thing about it, is that once you start,, your list will keep growing and growing.. ^^ i do really hope we could make it as a habit as it is the will of the Lord Jesus. May God grant us a faithful heart to remember His word and obey it. ^^

Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus [ 1 thessalonians 5:18]

package from hongkong

as i came home yesterday,, i noticed a brown box on the dinner table.. its something from hongkong.. guess what? of course my little baby, holga 135 bc.. getting something from the mail is a very sweet thing.. its a perfect way to add up a smile to ur day.. ^^
however bad thing about free shipping is they use envelope instead of box to wrap ur order.. so the holga box is a bit misshaped.. *sobs.. but the cute thing is they still using stamps for shipment.. old fashioned yet lovely.. hihi..

On hold..

carousel studio is now on hold because new eagerness has arisen.. that's me.. a very impulsive woman.. for this case is baking.. ^^ after my first tried on cupcake, next day the kitchen was busy with pancake.. though the pancake was not as expected,, but rhe making was fun.. and tonight there will be another session for pancake try out at home. this sunday we'll be having 'ramah tamah' for the kids, so some of the teachers will come for a demo... hopefully tonight pancake will be a yummy one.. *pray.. ^^

failed..

i love trying out new recipe.. and when i found a pancake recipe this afternoon,, i couldn't wait to go home and mess with the kitchen.. ^^ this pancake seems easy to make,, just add up all the ingredients and mix them up.. there is no possibility of being failed i thought.. but over confidence always ended up sadly.. huhu.. my pancake didnt come out as expected.. its a bit too hard and the taste is too plain.. -_- but i will definitely keep trying because i love pancake and it makes a perfect breakfast.. ^^ acha acha..

dont have the small fried pan,, so its over sized pancake.. =P

with blueberry yogurt topping..

1st baked cake

16.00 - picked mom up at industri and rushed to toko ani at Gunsa I..

16.55 - Arrived at the store 5 mins before they closed.. Thank God.. ^^ and here are what i bought.,,


19.00 - arrived at home.. bathed and started messing up the kitchen..



22.00- voilaaaa... proudly present my first cupcake .. ^^

my first cake book

i wanna make cupcake.. the main idea was i wanna give some favor for friends and families on my birthday.. it seems too late now , but i still want to give it a try.. so i ended up ordering above books.. these are books published by NCC (Natural Cooking Club). the books are not bad,, it has many cupcake decorating ideas but only few techniques listed..

holga is on the way..

yippie,, last nite my dearie helped me to book my first lomo camera on ebay,,, been waiting for it since forever. . and in two weeks time this baby will be on my hand. ** excited.. thank mom for a wonderful gift.. ^^

start all over again

yesterday i turned 23. dun wanna talk about the birthday now. its been a roller coaster day.. blame me for being so selfish and childish. it strated since the holiday, we have skipped the morning time with Jesus for more than one week. we have forgotten how big thing it is. we ended the day without any grateful feeling. slowly we losing something that keep us in control. we passed the day with human strengh, thought it will be enough..

But there are times when God shows His love through punishment. through problems and tears, we are reminded that we are nothing but a helpless human being. we cant make things happen with our own strengh. and we cant overcome the disappointment and fear by ourselves. we need holy spirit to guide us, to accept things,to fight the bad feeling,and most importantly to be able to love...

yesterday was frustrating. no one have the power to change yesterday. But God can.He turns the frustrating day as a way back to Him, to His loving arm where peaceful resides. yes, God never stop giving us opportunity to start over again. i want to spend more time with Him, learn more about His words. i want to be a responsible person, in my serving at church, in my work, in my relationship. i want to be more loving to my loved one, my family, friends and anyone... through prayer,it will happen..